When we crap in ZZZT journal..

Salam sejahtera and Selamat Hari Raya to dr and all the Muslim friends. For this lecture, our focus is on the link between emotion and personality. Undeniably, they are closely linked and in fact they come side by side. According to the lecture notes, there are two mechanism linking personality to emotion. Direct: personality cause someone to experience certain emotion while facing certain situation as compared to another person of different personality, this indirectly explains while some people can be so successful while others just get stuck in the slump, personality can be one of the primary causes. Indirect: personality leads to certain lifestyle and later to emotion. To explain this, I have to bring out “extraversion” and “neuroticism”. Extraversion is responsiveness to positive mood and neuroticism is responsiveness to negative mood. Undeniably, the life of one with high extraversion is full of sunshine and therefore he can experience happiness always. On the other hand, life of a highly neuroticism person will be like in a dark room where he or she will experience more negative emotions. In conclusion, we can see the personality of a person from the lifestyle.

Under the topic of Other Key Personality Attributes, I found one that is real interesting for me: Machiavellianism. What is it actually? According to Wikipedia, its one of the dark triad along with narcissism and psychopathy. Machiavellianism is the tendency for one to deceive and manipulate others for their own gain. However, to my understanding, Machiavellianism is not pure bad. High Machs constitute a distinct type: charming, confident and glib, but also arrogant, calculating and cynical, prone to manipulate and exploit. True low Machs, however, can be kind of dependent, submissive and socially inept. If seeing from this context, I think many people of this modern society do want to become a high Mach rather than low.

Then is video review. “Right Here Waiting” is a nice old song. It sings the vow of love from a guy to his loved one. It seems to me that the background is in 80^th century where the love one is going away to further the studies while the poor him have to stay behind. And by no communication means he can reach the girl, therefore he has been like wondering whether the girl is also waiting for him for the same time. Well, I like another video, “Childhood Experience” better. It depicts the reality of life, and also the dark side of the life where everything just would not come out as it should or as you expect. There is a twist near the end of the song where the singer is willing to believe in life amid its cruelty and uncertainties. It suits the personality of extraversion. There is a line that touches me: I still believe that J. He still believes that there will be light at the end of dark tunnel after growing up. And so do I.  After watching the “Type A Type B Personality” video, I found that I strike 9 out of 10 for Type A personality and few of Type B. It is time to relax myself.

For the personality test, I would like to claim that I am a 50-50 believer. For me, it can be equated to Horoscope that kind of thing. I have this thought base on two reason: first, personality tests are not reliable, there are so many types of tests and every one of them giving different answer, therefore I give up seeking my personality through these tests. Second, I do not see the significant of knowing your personality, because nothing change whether you know it or not. “Ya, I am the melancholic type of person, so what?” For me, it only have recreational value. By the way, I did try the tests up and find it fun enough.

The Big Five Theory gave me such a shock. I thought I will be the agreeableness type but I turn up to be the openness type. Let me explain what is the Big Five Theory. There are mainly five characters: openness, conscientiousness, extraversion, agreeable and neuroticism. Openness- Appreciate art, emotion, adventure, unusual ideas, imagination, curiosity, and variety of experience. Conscientiousness- preference for planned rather than spontaneous behavior. Extraversion- enjoy being with people, and are often perceived as full of energy. Agreeableness- tendency to be compassionate and cooperative rather than suspicious and antagonistic towards others. Last but not least, the character mostly shunted by people- neuroticism. This kind of people has a tendency to  experience negative emotions, such as anger, anxiety, or depression. They are emotionally reactive and vulnerable to stress.

I got ISTJ for my MBTI test which I do not feel like accepting it. The description writes: The Duty Fulfillers. It’s a hard blow for me. Since when I have turned into a sole duty fulfiller, which in my context equals to workaholic or work machine or boring type of person or people who does not know how to enjoy life. I would rather prefer other better titles such as Guardian Angels, Visionaries, Nurturers, Thinkers or Protectors. However, thinking back, my university life have been much alike of a duty fulfiller. For example, Zt journal. If you do not fulfill the task, you will get low marks, you will fail and die. There is no place for visionaries, artists, inspirers or aliens to survive in this course. Upon thinking this, I feel better, assured that this quality of mine will ensure a future for my medical career (if not a really bright one). For ISTJs the dominant quality in their lives is an abiding sense of responsibility for doing what needs to be done in the here-and-now. Their realism, organizing abilities, and command of the facts lead to their completing tasks thoroughly and with great attention to detail. Logical pragmatists at heart, ISTJs make decisions based on their experience and with an eye to efficiency in all things. ISTJs are intensely committed to people and to the organizations of which they are a part; they take their work seriously and believe others should do so as well. That’s the description for my personality, it do suits me somehow.

I glanced through some of the e-books that dr have given us and find it quite useful. I will go into full detail if I have the leisure time to do so.   (1060 words)