I dreamt of becoming famous

I dreamt of becoming famous

When everybody is wearing the same green track suit as me

And they yelled upon see-ing me

I dreamt of becoming famous

When the salesgirl tries to promote the Nike shoes to me

So that everybody will grab for it

I dreamt of becoming famous

When my name can be heard across the lecture hall

Where the lecturer tried to ignore me

I dreamt of becoming famous

When I talked to the girl

Me just as arrogant and sarcastic as before

I dreamt of becoming famous

When my friend turned away from me

Out of teeny weenie reason

And my heart shattered

I dreamt of becoming famous

When I slipped pass the canteen, alone

Bearing the stares and glares around

I dreamt of becoming famous

In my nightmare yesterday

When the label of pillow ticked my nostrils

I dreamt of becoming famous

Which is beyond my fanciest imagination

Which scared the sweat out of me

I dreamt of becoming famous

Who knows may be true one day

Which I don’t really care...

FooD FiestA in? P.J

It’s about the adventure of a wimpy kid paying his uncle a visit during his Raya Holiday, just to find himself in the midst of a food fiesta!!

Starring: Uncle, Aunty no1, Aunty no.2, Aunty no.3, Cousin no 1, Cousin no 2, Amma, Myself.

A life without food is a miserable one. ----- Sir Albin

26/8 (Fri)

7.00p.m

1^st stop: Plus One Shabu-Shabu

Character: All-(Aunty no3, Cousin no2)

Three pots of shabus. Mushrooms, big scallops, sea cucumbers, corn, beef, fish, chicken. Facial expressions hardened after eating for one hour. Stomachs bloating out. Amma cough non-stop after eating extra hot sauce. Rm 200++ So full~~

Give star: 3 out of 6 (food not as nice as expected, blahh)

27/8 (Sat)

8.ooa.m

2^nd stop: Dining room

Character: Same as first stop- Aunt no 2

You chap kuih + Milo

Still turned up to be so full thou there’s not much food. Four You Chap Kuihs must be expanding in my stomach after absorbing all the Milo.

12.oo p.m

3^rd stop: Dining room

Character: Myself, Uncle, Amma, Cousin no 1

Hakka mee from kopitiam

Neutral.

4.oop.m

4th  stop: Dining room

High Tea

Super sweet and super high calorie butter cake made by Aunty no 1.

Give Star: 2/6

Give heart: 5/6 (it will be too perfect if the cake is as nice as the look)

6.oop.m

5^th stop: Still dining room

Heart warming home cook dinner

Black fungus + meehoon, chicken + potato, vege, xi yong vege soup

Amma nyonya dishes. Feel at home!

Give heart: 6/6

28/8 (it’s Sunday)

8.oo a.m

6^th stop: Hong Kee Restaurant

Characters: Myself, Amma, Uncle

Fishball, San yok pau, carrot kuih, siew mai, fried prawn in bean sheet

Give star: 4/6 (The pork tastes raw!)

12.oop.m

7^th stop: Kampua shop

Characters: Myself, Uncle

Sarawak mee + Kopi o

Hmm… 80% resemblance. Keep it up ^^

4.oop.m

8^th stop: Dining room

Guests: Aunty no3 and Cousin no 3

Home made Oreo cheese cake

Give star: 5/6 (near perfect)

7.oop.m

9^th stop: Dining room

Characters: Full house!!

Siew Yok, Crab stick, orange juice, whatever vege

Give heart: 6/6 (Superb)

9.oop.m

10^th stop: Dining room

Character: full house

Oreo cheese, tau sah piao from Penang

*can’t my mouth just stop taking food? T^T

  

Today

8.ooa.m

11^th stop: Hong Kee restaurant

Character: Full house – Uncle who is working

Car siew pau, san yok pau, prawn in beancurd, char lobak, siew mai, yong taufu, fishball, tea, o kuih, ju jion fan, nor mai gai…

This time the pork does’n stink anymore.

12.oop.m

12^th stop: Dining room

Character: Fullhouse – Uncle

Domino pizza + domino chicken + morning leftovers

5.oop.m

13^th stop: Dining room

Characters: Full house – Uncle

Lemang + Curry

High G.i food, glucose lvl rocketing.

7.oo p.m

14^th stop: Dining room

Characters: Full house

Rojak + Tom yam meehoon + black jelly juice + watermelons

Tongue go numb after so much food, stomach gonna cramp

Aunt no 2:” Tomorrow we gonna try western food.” (pengsan)

9.30 p.m

15^th stop: IKEA

Characters: All – Amma – Cousin no 1

Hot dog

Eat for the sack of eating and to compensate for being unable to buy ice cream because the machine is down.

A life with too much food is as miserable.-----Sir Albin

When we crap in ZZZT journal..

Salam sejahtera and Selamat Hari Raya to dr and all the Muslim friends. For this lecture, our focus is on the link between emotion and personality. Undeniably, they are closely linked and in fact they come side by side. According to the lecture notes, there are two mechanism linking personality to emotion. Direct: personality cause someone to experience certain emotion while facing certain situation as compared to another person of different personality, this indirectly explains while some people can be so successful while others just get stuck in the slump, personality can be one of the primary causes. Indirect: personality leads to certain lifestyle and later to emotion. To explain this, I have to bring out “extraversion” and “neuroticism”. Extraversion is responsiveness to positive mood and neuroticism is responsiveness to negative mood. Undeniably, the life of one with high extraversion is full of sunshine and therefore he can experience happiness always. On the other hand, life of a highly neuroticism person will be like in a dark room where he or she will experience more negative emotions. In conclusion, we can see the personality of a person from the lifestyle.

Under the topic of Other Key Personality Attributes, I found one that is real interesting for me: Machiavellianism. What is it actually? According to Wikipedia, its one of the dark triad along with narcissism and psychopathy. Machiavellianism is the tendency for one to deceive and manipulate others for their own gain. However, to my understanding, Machiavellianism is not pure bad. High Machs constitute a distinct type: charming, confident and glib, but also arrogant, calculating and cynical, prone to manipulate and exploit. True low Machs, however, can be kind of dependent, submissive and socially inept. If seeing from this context, I think many people of this modern society do want to become a high Mach rather than low.

Then is video review. “Right Here Waiting” is a nice old song. It sings the vow of love from a guy to his loved one. It seems to me that the background is in 80^th century where the love one is going away to further the studies while the poor him have to stay behind. And by no communication means he can reach the girl, therefore he has been like wondering whether the girl is also waiting for him for the same time. Well, I like another video, “Childhood Experience” better. It depicts the reality of life, and also the dark side of the life where everything just would not come out as it should or as you expect. There is a twist near the end of the song where the singer is willing to believe in life amid its cruelty and uncertainties. It suits the personality of extraversion. There is a line that touches me: I still believe that J. He still believes that there will be light at the end of dark tunnel after growing up. And so do I.  After watching the “Type A Type B Personality” video, I found that I strike 9 out of 10 for Type A personality and few of Type B. It is time to relax myself.

For the personality test, I would like to claim that I am a 50-50 believer. For me, it can be equated to Horoscope that kind of thing. I have this thought base on two reason: first, personality tests are not reliable, there are so many types of tests and every one of them giving different answer, therefore I give up seeking my personality through these tests. Second, I do not see the significant of knowing your personality, because nothing change whether you know it or not. “Ya, I am the melancholic type of person, so what?” For me, it only have recreational value. By the way, I did try the tests up and find it fun enough.

The Big Five Theory gave me such a shock. I thought I will be the agreeableness type but I turn up to be the openness type. Let me explain what is the Big Five Theory. There are mainly five characters: openness, conscientiousness, extraversion, agreeable and neuroticism. Openness- Appreciate art, emotion, adventure, unusual ideas, imagination, curiosity, and variety of experience. Conscientiousness- preference for planned rather than spontaneous behavior. Extraversion- enjoy being with people, and are often perceived as full of energy. Agreeableness- tendency to be compassionate and cooperative rather than suspicious and antagonistic towards others. Last but not least, the character mostly shunted by people- neuroticism. This kind of people has a tendency to  experience negative emotions, such as anger, anxiety, or depression. They are emotionally reactive and vulnerable to stress.

I got ISTJ for my MBTI test which I do not feel like accepting it. The description writes: The Duty Fulfillers. It’s a hard blow for me. Since when I have turned into a sole duty fulfiller, which in my context equals to workaholic or work machine or boring type of person or people who does not know how to enjoy life. I would rather prefer other better titles such as Guardian Angels, Visionaries, Nurturers, Thinkers or Protectors. However, thinking back, my university life have been much alike of a duty fulfiller. For example, Zt journal. If you do not fulfill the task, you will get low marks, you will fail and die. There is no place for visionaries, artists, inspirers or aliens to survive in this course. Upon thinking this, I feel better, assured that this quality of mine will ensure a future for my medical career (if not a really bright one). For ISTJs the dominant quality in their lives is an abiding sense of responsibility for doing what needs to be done in the here-and-now. Their realism, organizing abilities, and command of the facts lead to their completing tasks thoroughly and with great attention to detail. Logical pragmatists at heart, ISTJs make decisions based on their experience and with an eye to efficiency in all things. ISTJs are intensely committed to people and to the organizations of which they are a part; they take their work seriously and believe others should do so as well. That’s the description for my personality, it do suits me somehow.

I glanced through some of the e-books that dr have given us and find it quite useful. I will go into full detail if I have the leisure time to do so.   (1060 words)

wu liao

夜

依然黑暗

夜之子复苏

揉眼的动作都省略了

几点了？睡迟了吗？

3：48

LED钟 无声地提醒

黑暗中一丝柔光

室友滴滴答答网聊着

夜无声

声

楼下的杂声渐渐平息

派对结束了

曲终人散

还原了该有的宁静

静

猫儿贴着地

匿着音，摒着气

一扑一抓

白天遗下的肯德基

在夜中被吞噬

殆尽

仿佛不曾存在过

过

孰无过往

眼前的发光体

一个人的故事

透过部落格

平静上演

遥远的遗憾

述说年少的无知

知

指尖渐渐失去知觉

仓促呼吸中为自己冲杯咖啡

便利贴密密麻麻爬满了字

纵横交错

就非作不可？

今天在意的事

明天是否就想透

不再执着

不再重要？

药

桌子一角的瓶瓶罐罐

并非体弱多病

乃是家里无微不至的关心

坚持着一天一通的电话

电话

断断续续地吐出

有一搭没一搭的讲义

手上的笔不曾停止

眼皮渐沉

浑身关节在重荷下吱吱叫

叫

鸟鸣取代鸡啼

宣告黑夜的尽头

窗外的天逐渐翻白

天亮了

夜方尽

该睡了

Thanks uncle

Thanks uncle, countless times i said it in my heart.
Thanks uncle, the words that i never make to speak out.
Thanks uncle, you are the one that teaches me to be more mature and independent.
Thanks uncle, for inviting me to stay with your family during holidays where i cant go home.
Thanks uncle, for i know how tiring its to drive all the way from your house to fetch me.
Thanks uncle, where you applied leave just to stay home and look after me.
Thanks uncle, where you have to look for good food for me after worn out from work.
Thanks uncle, the Japanese restaurant its really nice, still remember the grilled pregnant fish.
Thanks uncle, the dim sums r nice too, and the extra cup of Chinese tea.
Thanks uncle, for treating me so nicely.

Sorry uncle, for making you difficult to 做人.

A day to ICt

This is how my first tweet is suppose to be like, if not the annoying word limit.

Creating a Tweeter acc is one of his post-EOM plan, and now he is staring at the screen, fingers sweeping pass the keyboard slowly, making his slow but sure approach into the territory of Tweeter.

It had been a colorful day for him, and things turned up so neatly yet spirit lifting at the end of the day. Most high praise to Almighty Creator and not to forget a whole bunch of great bananas.

EOM and MS were the first two monsters to turn up in his newly made day. He fought bravely, daringly and he killed both. But the devastating effect of both monster on him is not yet fully known.

Thou the fight was a memorable one, one shudn waste too much of his lifetime on mentioning his past heroic action. Cox something yet more anticipating is pondering ahead. L4D2? No, thats part of puzzle of life, nothing much to be told, since its not a good memoir , but at least we did open our eyesight and know that how vast and dangerous the outside world is. However, its still worth looking forward.

Where's ICt? A group of blockheads knowing nothing of their destination exploring the maze of KL city to look for ICt.

Not to mention the wrong turns and extra tolls they had to absorb,they thankfully reach ICt. Btw, something worthwhile to mention is The Mystical Playground. The seesaws, the water taps, the lightly molded sampan, the swings the pillars, the slobs, u cant find it elsewhere, it only happens once, in a lifetime.

Well well, time to introduce ICt. A city of dazzling light which shines away the darkness of the night, yet coexist with the grey part of every visitors. Its the 2nd visit, old structures had been removed, new ones stand. An unique emotion stirred silently, but doen last long.

Mega mall turned out to be an open air lot with no sight of civilisation. The disappointment was soon overcome by the breath-taking scenery there, that’s the least I can use to describe the place. How well the creation of man merges with the nature. There all that stands are part of the nature, on a land named ‘technology’.

After coming to a common consent that we should first fill our stomach, the search for eateries started. It wasn an easy task in such bewilderment, after side-tracked to handicraft shops, we still din manage to find a suitable place to settle down.

Holding to the rule that no hour of our bloom age should be wasted, somebody grabbed his camera and there started the first SNAP. There massive chain reaction and soon everybody were out with their own cameras, except the pitiful owl-eye, whose phone had run out of power source. Nevertheless, this doesn spoil the fun. The whole photographing session takes place smoothly and systematically from one site to another. There was eat-all-you-can eater who want to swallow all the light bulbs that comes intothe sight, Mr the rock, who doen know how to post for his profile picture, The Slanting Humpy Dumpy, where the he turned up tilted in his profile-pic-to-b-photo. And others more, posting weirdly and unprecedentedly, like a group of professional attention seekers. That stare from the guard stationed beside was really scorching.

Doesn really remember how the whole session ended, the next moment we were in KFC ICt outlet. I believed this is a special one and different from other branches. I was wrong, the menus and the prices are the same. But somehow I find the food tastier, esp the mocha crunchy krusher.

Later, we had nice durians, which is a perfect end for the ICt day trip. Then, the car sped all its way on the high way back to the hostel and there ends our adventure. 

PPD assignment

Assertiveness

A simple deed of kindness, it requires assertiveness. You may doubt how true it is, but it is always true for me, or rather that’s what I believe.

It slipped from the hand of the old man, landed on the floor solidly but with a soft “thud”. Half a minute ago, I just took the Gardenia bread from the shelf in a 7-Eleven, get queued and waited for my turn to pay. In front of me was an old man, holding a walking stick in his hand. I can’t remember what he held in another hand, but most probably is a newspaper, in the firm grip of his. All of it happened in a second.  He lost his grip. The stick fell on the floor.

A few thoughts raced across my mind at that moment.  The first of it is to bend down and to help the old man to pick up the stick. Just then, my logical thought intercepted, what if he can manage to pick it up himself without my help? And immediately followed by my defensive thought, don’t simply show your kindness to anyone you doesn’t even know, not to say in front of a crowd (everyone in the 7-Eleven had their eyes fixed on the old man). There’s the hesitation of a moment, a struggle and balancing between the two choices: to help or not to help.

Involuntarily, I turned towards the cashier. She gave me “it’s a matter of common sense” look, at the same time her finger pointing towards the walking stick lying on the floor. Following her finger, I saw the old man bend to reach his stick with much difficulty. I understood immediately, what is it for me to hesitate so long. Isn’t it something everyone (everyone with a caring heart) will do? I stretched my hand, but at the same moment he picked up the stick. He left the shop as if nothing had happened. I paid. I left.

I felt dizzy. What I have done? The whole way back I have been regretting, for a bad testimony I had portrayed. I don’t really care how others look at me, but the old man’s feeling. He must be feeling bad, helpless. If only I helped, it would have make his life easier and bring comfort to an miserable old man. But my selfishness had hold me back, like many other times, ignoring the need of help just in front of me, which wouldn’t need much time, much energy.

The need for our help lurked in every corner, every minute of our life. They may approach us at the most unexpecting  way. That will be a real test of our personality. A single act can change the life of a person and you can never estimate how massive the effect will be. I have failed many a times and I hoped that they won’t be anymore in future. Whenever there is need of help, there should be immediate lend of hand. Love will make this world a better place.